"if you're a bird... i'm a bird..."

MY BOYFRIEND WROTE THIS TO ME-

hey guys, been a while hmm? where do i even begin, it's been so hectic, me and ryan arguing constantly, i have brown hair now, me and my bestfriend have made up, my god, it's been some month. me and ryan have just kind of made-up, after a full week with non-stop arguing. i don't even know if we have made up. his ex has been lying about me and all that kind of shit. he really doesn't care about me anymore, and he even admitted he can't be bothered with us anymore. so now that one years by, i think he think's he needs a new girlfriend. he's been choosing his friends over me for the first time ever, and he's acting the smart hilarious prick infront of everyone. it's not fair, i don't treat him like that? maybe he needs to realise what he's got. like he always says, 'shit happens'. he says he's not going to see me outside school for a bit, and on the monday he's playing his xbox, thursday he's staying at his friend's with a bunch of them, friday he's at alton towers, saturday he says he's sleeping all day, then sunday i go to lanzarote for a week. what great fucking fun this will be. i think i should just not talk to him while i'm in lanzarote. i don't know what to do anymore. i really don't. i'm so tempted to just say look, that's us, over, done, goodbye. but i can't. i love him to pieces, even though i've been in tears every night. maybe he'll soon miss me, who knows.oh, and btw, i've broke my foot.

so, today is the day me and ryan have knew each other for a year!
honestly so beamered hehe!

we met at the sponsored walk last year, an 8 and a half mile walk (some people run- me) and we got talking and finished it, but he got 42nd and i got 43rd cos i got cramp at the last metre haha! so this year, we ran the full thing together, hand in hand, and finished hand in hand. honestly, i have never felt so happy in my life. out of 700 people, i was the first girl back, and altogether we were joint 38th! everyone that saw us were like 'awwwwwwwwww!' and his ex was like 'fuck her.' hehehe, actually so happy! it's a year since we went out on the 30th of september, and this time last year he was going with his ex gail haha, i was like up yoooou! so i stink of sand, salt water, sea weed, sweat and dirt. oh well, least i can be myself when i'm around him! honestly, so so so happy! he really is amazing, and we do have alot of arguments, but we always get through them. i love him, lots and lots and lotsies!

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